Thursday, September 17, 2009

why the hell did I weigh myself today! why why why! it only led me to restrict dinner and then go for a jog later, grant it it was only for 10mins but I am not even suppose to be jogging at all. I walked for a good time too tonight. What provoked me to weight myself. I knew I wasnt going to like the number that the scale read. Of course I am not going to like it. It read 115. On last saturday a scale I stepped on read 110. Now I know all scales are different and I did have meals and ensures and water in me prior to stepping on the scale, but really 115!!! Now it is ever so tempting to step on it in the morning. What if it reads the same..... why oh why did i bring this hell upon myself

At least I am all packed up for my trip back home for my brother wedding. I am nervous but really excited at the same time. I plan on restricting.... that wrong, bad, shouldnt be doing that. But yet my urges are strong. Any advice?


  1. Take it slow and try to talk it out with someone you trust maybe? I'm sorry you're going through all this, but I hope this little step backwards doesn't unravel all the amazing progress you've made.

    You're seriously an inspiration to everyone in this community and you're stronger than you may feel right now. Good luck and keep us posted :)

  2. Hey it's Rayray, don't know if you remember me or my blog (skinnyhappygirl) but I caught up with your blog today and wanted to drop you a line. I am so glad you are taking care of yourself and have people supporting you. I've always enjoyed your blog immensely. Sending you love and good vibes <3 -Rayray
    P.S. debating starting a new blog...

  3. well, i would certainly advise to keep up to recommendations! as hard as it might be, it's for your own best and it will get easier with time if you fight your urges already!;)