At least I am all packed up for my trip back home for my brother wedding. I am nervous but really excited at the same time. I plan on restricting.... that wrong, bad, shouldnt be doing that. But yet my urges are strong. Any advice?
Thursday, September 17, 2009
why the hell did I weigh myself today! why why why! it only led me to restrict dinner and then go for a jog later, grant it it was only for 10mins but I am not even suppose to be jogging at all. I walked for a good time too tonight. What provoked me to weight myself. I knew I wasnt going to like the number that the scale read. Of course I am not going to like it. It read 115. On last saturday a scale I stepped on read 110. Now I know all scales are different and I did have meals and ensures and water in me prior to stepping on the scale, but really 115!!! Now it is ever so tempting to step on it in the morning. What if it reads the same..... why oh why did i bring this hell upon myself