Tuesday, April 7, 2009

fuckin hate weighing 113lbs

this one teacher of mine is just the best. I cant believe I tell her all that I do. After class today, she and I talked for over an hour. We laugh, have heart to hearts, I cry, she gives advice, we hug, and sooner or later I always get an encouraging email from her. 

i went for a 27min run in the glorious sun. I was going to bike, but teach talked me out of it. So i called katie, went for a drive and then ended over at Nicks fir a short visit...me rant and vent with a cuddle. perfect

I have a lot of negative things to say about my day and myself, but if I focus on that, I will end up in a way worse mood. Besides, its not pleasant to think about how much of a screw up I am right before bed.

I get to start teaching again tomorrow! yay for that! but nerve wreaking, let the heavy school course load begin! oh man I just want this week to be over, its not a typical week. Next week I will be able to work out more and have an actual schedule for school, work, and life. This week between classes I am training at work and earning my certificate. Quite the balancing act. I hope I make it without a major breakdown... I am so sick of tears.. does anyone else cry when they get their period? I cry because I know I have enough fat on me to even get one...

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  1. AnonymousApril 7, 2009 at 4:16 AM

    POSITIVITAY, i'm so proud of you. You're totally right, focusing on the negatives only gets you down. good luck with all the work, try not to let it get in your way! (those extra 3 pounds are probably all related to your period, they'll be gone sooner than you know it!

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  2. RhiannaApril 7, 2009 at 8:42 AM

    I do sometimes because of the same reason, but im heavier than i have been in years and i haven't had one in two months (TMI).Can't say I miss it.

    Hope things pick up soon when you can finally plan out your weeks without unexpected interruptions. Im sure you'll be under 110 in no time.

    Xxx

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  3. NatashaApril 7, 2009 at 11:47 AM

    I'm like a mad woman when I get my period, and yes, I do get depressed that I even have one, I went a few months without it and then when it came back I was PISSED ;)

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  4. Ana333April 8, 2009 at 3:02 PM

    HEy girl... omg, i know how you feel! I wish I could go back down to ALEAST 113.... I used to be 106. Im 5'3" and hear this.... Im 138.... I was never ever this fuckin huge!! Damn it! Ugh, my parents made me eat more and shit happens. Anyhow, I dont care anymore, Im gonna looe at least 20 pounds... Just wanna say keep it up, and mabe we can encourage each other....

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  5. KfApril 9, 2009 at 8:45 AM

    Oh I remember when I was at 110lbs, jeez I hated that number.. :/ G'luck<3

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  6. KApril 10, 2009 at 6:21 AM

    Love your blog!

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