I have to head to work in a bit so my post is short. I managed to not sleep my day away and I completed some assignments. Its all about the little things, the little accomplishments. Like I made my bed, showered, dressed, and I did get some assignments completed and items on my to do list crossed off. I will go to work and earn some much needed cash and I cant not change time flowing and the day ending. Despite my efforts, tomorrow will still come. I will be busy. Thats life. The business of life will never end, there will always be something that needs to be completed and deadlines will always exist. But today.. for today, I am going to be ok. I am going to do what I can in the moment as they present themselves. And I will try to laugh some, and smile some, and just be blessed with what I do have.
I have breathe, and I am able to take care of myself in ways my residents cant. I have speech, and legs, and can feed myself. I have family, even if it may be dysfunctional, my dad still called me today and thought of me. My dad took time out of his day to say hello and love you and the family is thinking of you this Easter. Great. I will take it.
SO what if I did a mini binge this morning. Its ok. I am over it. I am not going to dwell on things right now. I cant handle it, and it makes life miserable. I am too young to "dwell" on the small things. AND I AM IN NO WAY giving others permission to engage in unhealthy behaviors, I am just saying I acknowledge that I screwed up but that I am going to move on and make better choices in my day. OR at least try to make better choices. I am saying the past is the past. It is what it is. I cant change what has already happened. So I will move on. I will take a deep breath and continue on with my day.
Tomorrow will come, and the sun will rise once again. Monday will always come after Sunday, and I will take comfort in this.
wow... guess I had more on my mind then I thought.