Wednesday, July 29, 2009

long over due update

hey everyone

just letting you know I went into inpatient treat 14 days ago, hence the lack of input and posting. I am still alive and well, well.... doing the best I can to managage and cope with what life has handed me right now. This sucks, they had me on a hold for awhile, and now that I an=m volunteary again, I want to sliplt so bad. There is only so much food and thearpy a person can handle.


I have to tell my theaprist something. I fell I ought to but I think they might put on watch again. DO you know how hard it is to admit you have sucidal thoughts? Can anyone realte? OR how to tell someone? YEa....

so i figured out I can get on this site without the interenet blockage I will check back tomorrow or a few days. Hope all is well. By the way my weight is 105lbs! and tye are making me drink suplements... gross and way too fattening.. at leat I am not stealing or binging.... thank goodness for that

night ladies
be welll yourselves.

3 comments:

  1. good to hear from you. good luck with treatment.
    ~Harlow

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  2. glad you are doing well.

    Yes, I've had thoughts about suicide. Dying kind of intrigues me, I just can't go so far to do it to myself cuz I feel like I'll get punished for it and I'll get dealt a lesser hand in my spirits next journey to Earth. (Like a poor, weak, ugly, fat person that gets abused or something)

    I dunno. Sounds like crazy talk, I'm sure. I thought about deleting but...whatever, it's true-crazy or not-it's what I think.

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